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■ Now / 今

I'm making this page about what I'm up to at this time in my life after reading about "now" pages from here. I liked the idea so here's what I've been up to.

2026年06月16日┊ It's been just about a year since I last updated my "now" page. So where are we? I am still working at the same job (trauma youth counselor at a Child Advocacy Center). I love my work and team and clients, but continue to feel bogged down and burnt out by various aspects of the job. I think I am navigating that about as well as one could. My father-in-law recently passed away after a battle with dementia. We spent about a week standing vigil as his body slowly shut down. He died in his home... A short time after, my maternal grandmother passed after a sudden stroke. I attended her memorial in Texas, and then immediately turned around and flew to NYC to visit my little niece for her 1st birthday. So I feel like I have been reeling a bit after all of that, and have been leaning hard into my hobbies to keep me feeling grounded and rested mentally. I've been feeling more creative recently, and feel excited to (hopefully) visit Japan in the fall. We have absolutely no solid plans around doing this, but it's a very real intention.
Major things taking up attention in my life lately (in no particular order):

Continuing to plan my cyberdeck. I have more materials accumulated and even got a sewing machine last Christmas, so I feel just about ready to dive into it (but haven't been able to find the time)
Planning out my life in more detail with my various planners. I finally feel like I have a beautiful and fun collection of stationery and other items to play with and I've been enjoying really maximalizing my systems :-)
Dreaming of visiting Japan. Dreaming of moving to Japan. Dreaming of moving outside of the US. I still feel conflicted about the future and what to dream about...
Enjoying editing lots of art and content I've created. I took some photos recently of the nearly abandoned malls in Chinatown in NYC and I'm having a blast thinking about them
Preparing for our godson to visit in July for two weeks. He's ~13 and I have literally never had to "care for" a teenager before, lol ;-0
Trying to encourage myself to do some things I need to do, like studying Japanese and for the NCE
Wanting to get back into going to a gym and taking care of my body after our gym closed last year and I've barely worked out since T-T

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CURRENT / 現在

Mood:
Listening to: Mei Semones
Reading: Dark Water Koji Suzuki
Watching: H3 and Nathan Fielder's shows
Playing: SOS Grand Bazaar and Pikmin Bloom
Eating: Home Chef meals
Drinking: Miso latte

Updated on 2026年06月16日

2025年07月15日┊ I've been living in Seattle since 2016 and finally feel like I have some roots under me. I finished my MA a few years ago and am now working as a trauma and play therapy counselor for youth and their families in the community setting. I don't drive, so my commute is pretty far and long. I spend around 8-12 hours a week commuting. Because of that, I get a lot of decompression time on the train/bus, which I believe helps me combat burnout from my work. But burnout is still very present. Especailly living under the current administation in the US... I have been feeling more depressed since around December of 2024, and it's been getting worse each month, to the point where I haven't felt like engaging in hobbies as much. But I am fighting back against it. Going to therapy again, upping my anxiety medication, intentionally taking long breaks from social media, and forcing myself to do my hobbies even when I'm not in the mood. Also, getting plenty of rest...
Major things taking up attention in my life lately (in no particular order):

Planning and designing a cyberdeck/planner. I have a lot of materials accumulated now, but I need to bring it all together and start working on the hard parts. I am very newb and do not claim to know what I'm doing. But it's a lot of fun to pretend I do. :-)
Trying to catch up with paper work admin tasks before we have another big audit for work.
Helping out my in-laws while they cope with my father in law's dementia.
Planning a visit to see my sister and brother in law in the fall in NYC to meet their NEW BABY GIRL! :-D
Prepping myself mentally for the big work retreat we have in the middle of each summer. It's a nice time but very emotionally draining.
Enjoying my life more post partial hysterectomy surgery (wow, what a massive improvement my pain has had)!
Navigating relationships with people in my life that I don't agree with politically, and playing with the idea of moving out of the country at some point if at all possible (feeling super disallusioned by this country...)
I should be planning to take the NCE soon but I haven't actually started planning that...
Trying to track my health related issues more so that I can get a real diagnosis at some point (I suspect hEDS, but the best my doctor can do right now is "chronic fatigue", which is basically a "we don't have answers" kind of answer. I am starting physical therapy soon though so hopefully that will help.

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CURRENT / 現在

Mood:
Listening to: Deftones
Reading: Off and on I've been reading Ring and The Loving Dominant (lol)
Watching: H3
Playing: Pikmin Bloom
Eating: Just finished a veggie burger and some leftover green beans I made last week. Also, Tony's Everything chocolate bar.
Drinking: Ginger Lime Sparkling ICE drink

Updated on 2025年07月15日